faggot

(: can't go to sleep. well spent day

and

Lavander Tea No.362 from the Gap

christmas list

confused

... extremely rough yesterday. I just had to cut my hair. I feel like my hair holds a lot of my stress, and when I finally do cut my hair, I feel much better. I'm still a little scared that I'll regret my decision but I have hope.

Tomorrow I've got to get four teeth pulled - my first surgery ): I'm scared shitless.

stress free BABY

My finals schedule:
Wednesday - history and English
Thursday - chem and pre-cal
Friday - LEADERSHIP AND MULTIMEDIA

Yup, no studying for me bitches!!! I can finally rest early (: thaaaaankkkkk Godddddd

I think I got at least a B on my APUSH test. Pretty sure I got an A on my English test. Probably a B or an A on my chemistry. Most definitely an A on my motha fuckin' precal test! Yayyyyyyy, I'm satisfied with myself. I worked hard and did my best, hopefully my grades will reflect all that. If not, I did all that I could and I am just extremely glad that it's all over (:

Tonight:
Gonna decorate our leadership board and wrap secret Santa gifts!

"I want some action"

If you haven't noticed, I've been getting a little crazy worrying about finals. It's the day before, and even though I have yet to study my vocab words and stories for apeng, finish my history study guide for apush, start my 80 point chem assignment, or make a front and back cheat sheet for precal ... I'm fairly confident that I'll be okay.

I've been making up tests and quizzes in Mr. V's, and I swear I feel really confident about that Chapter 4 test that he let us retake today. Also, I spend TWO FUCKING HOURS doing extra credit in Ms. Hill's class so I'm hoping that that will get me on her good side and hopefully get me at least an A-. It's weird, even though she knows that I was one of the "cheaters" she kept telling all her students in the class that I was a good writer or that I got A's on all my tests or that she trusts me ... like wtf? Oh well! (:

So now, no matter how my grades turn out, whether they're straight A's or 3 B's like I guessed, I did all that I could do and I'm happy with myself.

stressing myself out

It's amazing, although I try not to seem like one of those people that try really hard or care too much about her grades, once I got news that my grades were slipping slightly, the panic set it. The odd thing to me is that that some of the smartest people I know have B's in at least a couple of their classes .. and they just accept it. These are the same people that are just as - if not more - driven to get into a good college as I am. Am I just being insane in freaking out? I just feel so behind ..

All I know is that this side of me is not a pretty one, and I can't wait for this damn week to be over!!!

I think I'm not alone in saying

nothing can beat sophomore year.

first christmas party of the year

Here goes my Friday:

Pick up Christie,
school,
frustrated over grades and finals - 3 B's?,
home to pick up clothes,
off to Sacramento with my brother,
go to Borders for the BEST hot chocolate ever,
dance 'till we're dead in the car,
video tape some of us dancing,
get to Ate's place,
get all dolled up in thirty minutes,
take a shot with everyone,
get into a taxi (it was so stinky),
eat bajillions of appetizers while we waited to be seated,
crazy photos in the photobooth,
sat down and ate our four course meal,
laaaaaambbbb and creme brule(?) <3,
drank like three glasses of different wines since they weren't carding me,
hit the blackjack tables,
hit the pool tables,
more photobooth,
hit the roulette tables,
more photobooth,
more blackjack,
end the night with $2875 in fake money,
raffle - Mike won,
dancing dancing dancing,
hang out with Ate's friends who are all basically drunk,
get a cab,
home then to Safeway for frozen pizzas,
Mike's drunk,
watched Intervention,
bed by 3 for me - idk about those party animals
pretty fun experience (:
I am soooo about to hit the blackjack tables once I'm of age

Wow, I actually did something on a Friday other than eat and sleep, Yay!

xmas party this Friday <3

note to self

1. get running you fatty!
2. hop on those scholarships
3. sign up for ACTs and SATs
4. christmas shopping
5. make gift list (:

I say

a lot of things I don't mean.


Just a lot of stuff on my mind :P

I hate the night time

too much time to myself. too much time to think about things that I prefer not to think about. I need a hobby, haha keep my mind off of everything.

Today was a fail. Woke up early and got to school by 710 only to find out that Ramos wasn't even at school yet and wouldn't be at school in time for us to sell. I felt bad for Lisa the most. This girl got in trouble for bringing a big box of doughnuts to help us make a profit, and we didn't even get to sell those suckers! Fucking Ramos.. after all the times he's given us the "I'm disappointed in you" speech.

School was a breeze. I'm beginning not to like APUSH anymore ever since Carey started becoming all routine and lets face it, a little bit mean. Ms. Hill's class is pretty easy so far.. I am not looking forward to her brain melting fucking final. Kudos to Austin for being slick enough to slip his essay into her folder! Chemistry was hand straining today. I'm pretty nervous for the test tomorrow since I really haven't been paying much attention lately. Math is fun! I like logs cuz they're just so damn easy. Leadership is chill. Plans for prom are finally getting finalized, I'm excited! Multimedia is a breeze. Working with Jaypee, Axl, and Kevin on our group final project. Just finished our awesome Asian Cuisine Menu - Crafty Rice Restaurant (:

Afterschool got to see Austin's working car (: Went to church for almost threeee freaaakkinnnn hourrrssssssss. Home

shut it

Saturday - Woke up too late to work out, late to the performance practice, went home to drink some tea and shake the nerves off, changed my song, performed, rushed home, rushed to Ate Aileen's, watched Public Enemies, Dr. Horrible's Blog, the Hangover, and the Ultimate Fighter finale. Home by 10, knock out some time after that

Sunday - Wake up, shower, eat, church, catch up with Nick, Austin, New Moon, clean my room, do my laundry, ... bad rest of the night.

Tomorrow - Scheduled to wake up at 550 to get to school at 650 to sell. FUCK

quiet

I don't even fucking know anymore. I am not in a healthy state of mind at the moment. I want to talk to someone, but ... GAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHDDDDDDDD, it's becoming too much.

want want want

I really need some boots and warm jackets for the winter. It's becoming so cold that it doesn't matter what you wear underneath your jacket anymore. I also need some new jeans because only three pairs of my jeans have no holes in the crotch area, damn thick thighs.. Basically I want a wardrobe update for christmas. I can't wait!!! The only downside: getting my wisdom teeth removed ):

I've managed to finish all 10 seasons of Friends in one month. Now, I don't know what to do with myself. Anyone have a show to suggest?

12/4/09
Happy Birthday Kamille <3
School, home, nap for 4 hours, out to eat, home to watch ghost shows

Tomorrow: Wake up early to run at Benicia State Park. Perform at church. Drive to Ate Aileen's.