the King is finally 1!

Got a good 13 hours of sleep and woke up to a wakey wakey text (: I miss the boo!

Cleaned the entire upstairs since my mom threatened my ability to go out or get my permit if I didn't start getting my shit together. I was pissed at first, but I'm not going to lie .. I really like my clean ass room right now.

Around 4, Ate picked me up to go to King's party. He is now a 1 year old and officially baptized! Saw Kamille after what seemed to be foreeeeever and caught up on each others lives, but she left super early for some lame reason ): Party was fun doh and there was way too much food. I was full after just my first plate and couldn't even manage to eat any of the lechon. Got to do the freeze with some of the aunties and played with all the kids and their crap load of balloons. Got home around 930 which was pretty early compared to most of our parties. I guess there was an after party at Aperil's, but I was too pooped to go. So here I am home alone, yet again. Whatever, it was a fun night (: Now 300 pages of reading

without me you're just fot

It's been a while! I'll go backwards:

Friday 2/27/09

Aus didn't come to school because he was going to Tahoe with Gabe. It was fun still, but I really missed the oss to my fot <3

1st- Argued with Hill because she's a dumb whore

2nd- Texted, listened to music, did super homework

3rd- Kinda sorta studied, but mostly talked with the tables in front of me. Took the first A&I test, but only knew the vocabulary answers. Thank God for Rhea (:

4th- Yet another sub. Asked to go to the bathroom and she called me a cutie. She looked like Barbie's momma or something

5th- Aced the Marte test

6th- Badminton tourney with MaFreako!!! It was intense, there are hella good ass teams. AH! We'll be at court one again soon

Afterschool: Drama club in the little theatre. Christa is hella sweet, bought me some Jamba (: After we were booted off stage by the cheerleaders, waited in the quad with the bboys, Justin, Josh, and Spotty trying to look for a ride. There was no hope, decided to walk home and yet again was spotted by Aus' family and got a ride home the rest of the way, yay! Been watching the ABDC marathon and I fucking looooove beat freaks.

Thursday 2/26/09

School. Hung out with Aus since I wouldn't see him all week-end. Fell asleep while he did his yardwork then woke up to him shaking me like a mad man. Got to go to Chevys thanks to Ken and had a really good ass date. Fun fun fun. Hella miss him already! So GAY. "Webbedy weh!"

Wednesday 2/25/09

School. SWIM PRACTICE = hardest shit I've ever done. After just two laps I was gasping for breath. I wish I could go more often, but drama is really important now, whether or not I have lines. Anyways, first day for both me and Alyssa. It was just lap after lap after lap, I don't know how they do it. Once I got out of the pool, I literally almost collapsed. Went to sleep at mo fuckin' 930. Wow

Tuesday 2/24/09

I don't remember!

I hate being forced into my religion Chorus costume!

Danilo's cut, doesn't the blood look fake?

Yummy

Miss you booooooo

Forgot all this food, haha

Before

After

"Remember when..."
Mushroom head

The game

I lost them ):

No hairspray
Something new with my eyes

The game

TRUE CAMERA HO

Aus' face

(: Your background

Sossamon's smile

Love my phone!

oh shitter

I'm so fucking happy!

...

Homework now, blog later

asian baby!

^^HAHAHA (doodles by Claire) vv

Second portion of my day was fun.

Napped after failing the online practice permit tests, HAHA. Woke up with a really wet cheek thanks to an incredibily deep sleep and a wide open mouth. Picked up Claire, went to confirmation, talked about depression and suicude, had a good ol' group talk that was supposed to be about depression but turned into a relationship talk, blah blah. Afterwards, instead of going to my car alone and waiting for my parents' class to end, Claire chilled in the car with me and we talked about whatever while eating "stolen" granola bars. Haha, fun fun.

now you're just as ugly on the outside as you are on the inside

1st- Didn't do any homework at home. BS'd my book report form since I didn't even start my novel yet, then copied Arielle's Animal Farm notes to catch up. Thank God Steven printed out scripts for our JLC skits and we'll be able to study them tonight. Turned in the same symbolism project notes that I took before. Amen.

2nd- Somehow I got a really good grade on the last exam. WTF, I was completely shocked. I thought I might have gotten a C on that shit, but wow it was actually one of my best.

3rd- Alllllllll bad.

4th- Cervero wasn't there and we didn't know what to do. Aus, Mafreako, Lena, and I walked around trying to decide on a place to hang out. End up in Grouts class but he tells us that we're supposed to be in Manansala's. I hate that teacher

5th- Did all the work assigned (: It made me feel alot better.

6th- Badminton tournament begins. Mafreako is my dubs partner and we're crazy. We scream almost as much as Bernie, haha. Fun fun fun

Afterschool

Decided to walk home to get some exercise plus catch up on some reading. Unexpectedly Coleen calls and asks if I want a ride. Get in the car, come home, cook an omlette and some choco pancakes, then hop on the computer and here I am.

Confirmation tonight :P Grr

10AM to 10PM

Yesterday was a girls day out: Ate, Mom, Inang, and I

$5 Walmart

Fot City in Old Sac

Ate's Paul Frank glasses <3

you lookin' fo a refund?

Slept at 2 for the third day straight, woke up at 7. Fuuuuuck

1st- Hopefully aced that JLC test. Got hella catching up to do: notes, novel, etc
2nd- I like probability because I know it's something useful
3rd- MaFreako, Austin and I are Team Astronomy! Garrison gave us until Monday to do the test b/c he printed out the wrong one. He hasn't been a jerk to us lately, haha but we can't let our guards down
4th- Yet another chill day!
Lunch- DO THE HUSTLE! do do do do do do do do do ...
5th- Cheated on the Ch12 test, as usual
6th- Badminton smashes and drops with Kathleeeny

Afterschool
Went to drama club rehearsals. I hella like the dancing! We all really really suck at it, but we're still all having a really good time. Got a ride to IHOP, but everyone else was walking. Decided to chill at Best Buy until they got there. IHOP basically goes: doing the hustle, unlimited pancakes, angry waitress, laugh laugh laugh laugh laugh, telephone, $117, goodbyes. Turned out to be a really fun little get together (:

Walked with Aus to the movies to watch Friday the 13th, FINALLY! Good ass previews then a really scary ass beginning. The movie was probably the best of the previous Friday the 13ths, but like most scary movies, there were a lot of predictable parts. I'm not going to lie, I screamed a couple of times, but I was kinda sorta more focused on how annoying some of the characters were i.e. douche bag guys and slutty girls. Afterwards, Daddy Link bought us Cold Stone (: Got dropped off at home around 9 like my parents asked and they weren't even here! HAHA, those niggaz are always out church partying.

Lately things have been really good. Now that I've stopped caring, I've been able to not doubt myself as much. I feel great (:

My candy man's candy bag

Make it rain!

Syrup art

rough patches of freeway

1st- Ms. Hill must not know the #1 rule in having substitutes, Never turn in your work to them. This nigga wouldn't let any of the non ski trippers turn in the work we did yesterday. Grr
2nd- Worked in groups. We were all so confused, I miss Christina and Remilyn
3rd- Postponed the ch18 test! Unfortunately, I forgot my book in my locker so I'm still not going to study. HAHA, whatever I'm going to just rely on my drama club points like Arielle does
4th- Chill day, thank God. After the day of silence she put us through yesterday, we deserved this day to be free. I think we've been on ch1 for months now, haha
Lunch- Gabe and Patty make me laugh with their "special sauce" on their sandwiches. Danilo's backpack got stompped on and his calculator was destroyed. I thought a quarter popped out of it and for a brief moment I thought that maybe we should just steal everyone's calculators and take their hidden quarters, hahaha
5th- Normal day in Marte. She marked me absent yesterday and I think my mom called her. Wouldn't be surprised if they chatting in tagalog
6th- Badminton with partner Kathleeeeeeeeen. We get so angry, ahahha.


Afterschool
Went to the tennis meeting and was hella happy to see everyone again, especially the seniors. Arianna is still hilarious, and the KCK are still just as cute and chipper. It really sucks that the confirmation kids can't go to the banquet, what perfect timing =/

Afterwards, went to drama club and line danced. It was fun, except everyone kept getting really cluttered. I actually sort of liked acting rehearsals today.. well until we actually did our lines. Only three weeks left! :o

Got a ride from Momma Link. I was soo sleepy. Snuggled on the couch, under my second favorite blankey, played the "control" game, fun fun. Went home and fell asleep. I loooove sleep! I haven't been getting much because I keep slacking on homework. Woke up to Aus' phone call. It wasn't the most agreeable conversation, but I'm glad that we are able to talk through arguments and find a happy medium. Things are great

procrastination

kills.

don't do it.

I'm going to regret waiting until now to start my homework.

1AM,

fuuuuuuuuuck

curds and whey

2/17/09
Stayed home from school due to killer migrane and common cold symptoms. Really toss and turny sort of sleep the night before, but the extra day of relaxation made me feel a lot better.

Later, went to Aperil's house and picked up her old Sony Ericson. My razr was pissing me off because yet again, the charger was fucked up. Got this phone and spent about 2 hours trying to figure it out. So far, I LOVE IT. Sure it's not any fancy sliding phone or anything, but it's the best phone I've ever owned whether or not it's used. Hella gangster music/ringtones doh. Oh well, free memory card (:


2/18/09
1st- Ms. Hill wasn't there because of the ski trip. It sucks how good of students we are, even when she's not around. Did our work in silence.
2nd- Dealt with probability. I feel like we didn't spend enough time on logs and imaginary numbers
3rd- Helped Aus copy, witnessed him and his drug dealing, I'm glad he's making so much profit
4th- PISSED. The period that I actually had something to say, we weren't allowed to talk. Colored pictures and sent notes.
5th- Got to class feeling shitty. I know I'm wrong for getting so angry, I didn't even think it was such a big deal until we brought it up. I still have things to say, but like he said "we'll get through this" <3
6th- Badminton serves. My follow through hit anyone who stood behind me, haha.

Afterschool- Waited with Lorenzo and Aus for Daddy Link to come pick us up. Went to Queeznos really quickly and got a sandwich that smelled like an armpit, made my breath smell like an armpit, but sure didn't taste like an armpit. MmM! Talked to Lorenzo about taking our permit tests probably next week. It'd be so awkward if only one of us passed, haha. I need to study the handbook. Got home, made some chocolate chip pancakes that didn't even compare to Momma Link's pancakey goodness. My chocolate chips wouldn't melt! Watched Dirty Dancing on demand <3 then fell asleep. Woke up to the sound of my phone vibrating and a worried Momma on the other line. Oops, forgot to call. Started to watch Modern Marvels about cheese and now I'm craving some stinky goodness.

say what you say, do what you do

Throughout this entire day, every moment I had free time to think, I would rehearse little phrases to myself that I was planning to write in this very blog. Pathetic, right? I was prepared to let it all out, publicize what was being mentioned on blogger and myspace through moods, headlines, top friends, etc in a series of sarcastic remarks and spiteful words.. but then after talking to people who have gone through exactly what I'm going through now, who aren't trying to just help me have the last word in this arguement, who actually have some sense of rationality and aren't so wrapped up in the heat of things, it made me realize how miniscule this all really is.

Basically, our friendships with each other were not ideal. We lacked communication, trust, and respect for one another. We kept our opinions to ourselves to try not to hurt the other person, but in doing that we only hurt our friendship even more in the long run. All I can really say is, I wish I knew about how you all felt about me and the things I've done or said at the times that I do or say them. Who knows, maybe I shouldn't have made so many mistakes or maybe you should have been more honest. Either way, things went down the way that they did and here we are; hurt and broken. But hey, you've got to admit that it wasn't all completely bad and we did have some pretty good times. We had really good laughs and really good memories that were really fun while they lasted, but as the cliche goes, all good things must come to an end at some point. Still, even through all the shit we're going through right now, I just want you to know that I really will miss the good times we had together. Sorry for any mistake I might have unknowingly made and anything I kept to myself that I should have probably voiced to you. We live and we learn.

I've said my apologies, said what I felt were the most necessary things to be said to you, heard what you had to say, and forgave you whether or not you apologized. I hope that someday we'll be friendly again, but until then I want nothing more than to make peace and be civil towards you both. I'm done arguing. I'm so incredibly happy with my life right now, there's no need to feel resentment towards either of you. If anything, thank you for helping me make some realizations about myself that I was too pessimistic to see on my own. Thank you Aus and Ate especially for helping me stay strong, and thank you to those who gave me the opportunity to test that inner strength. I'm excited for what lies ahead.


Thanks for reading. Good night

President's Day

I.. CLEANED! then slept, then texted, then slept more, then homeworked

That's basically my Monday, haha.

jaypee's kick ass camera

it looks better on his blogger than mine

natural fucking high (:

So yesterday was blah. I slept from about 6pm to 10am, seriously. Hhaha soo beat from doing nothing! This weather just makes you want to snuggle into a blanket and dream all day.

Today was the shit. Valentines Day = Surprise Belated Birthday Party (:

Got to Aus' house and as I got to the door I hear Gabe's distinct voice saying "SHH SHH SHE'S HERE" Hahaha. Greeted by a roar of deep voices, giant bundle of balloons, and the smell of pizza. I can't really describe the day because there was just too much that went on. Basically:

- COD, pizza, chips, then Rockband
- dog poop everywhere
- trampoline injuries
- BB guns
- more trampoline
- cake and screamo sort of birthday song
- pro pictures off of Jaypee's camera
- D, Gabe, and X leave early ):
- Arielle and Carla get there (:
- attempt at hide n seek, freeze tag, and other shit
- fucking with cars, then running away
- bonfire
- girl bonding, haha so gay "everyone hold hands!"
- deep talks on the trampoline
- deep talks at the fire
- start to get sick and exhausted
- put on 5 layers of clothing both upper and lower body
- translating Daniel
- goodbyes
- the end!

AH, hella fun. Surprisingly, no awkwardness between people. Everyone was laughing, singing, jumping, eating, etc. It was the perfect party. I was hella flattered because Momma Link put soo much time and effort into this. Had sweet 16 lollipops; big and little sweet hearts; good ass cake, pizza, hot cocoa, etc; plates that were my favorite colors, balloons that were my favorite colors, more, more, more, more, more. Grr, I hate the way I always look at the bad and take for granted all the good around me. It's in these moments that I realize how much love I really do have in my life. I loved this fun ass, care free day. I hella wish I could replay it over and over and over again. Thank you everyone for celebrating today with me! This was seriously the Sweet 16 I always wanted (:

PS I love love love you lots boo! Thank you for putting this all together. You are the best<3

flappy foot

School was shit! There isn't much to mention except getting hella satisfying Wendy's during lunch (: Damn monthly making me bipolar. Went to drama club and felt really sick. Ken drops me off around 430. Quick nap, motrin, breakfast burritos.

Go to Aus' around 6. The usual eggs and toast. Heated up a chocolate chip pancake(!).Posessed screams in the dark. White spider! Tickle/laugh attacks. Good music + sing-a-longs. Hella hella fun fun! 14324 <3 Happy almost Friday the 13th. Happy almost Valentines Day. Happy almost Presidents Day.

And Happy Birthday to my favorite pressy!!!

surprise (before part b) part a!

Momma and Ate

6th?

16th!

awkward.

KING!

Mama Bhe, Papa, and Ate

once everyone left

ballin'

Yay, I love him

the end!