pictures

Arielle was my secret santa! Perfect jacket (:Matching plaid
Mike's gingerbread house

Diseased during the first day in Disneyland
Pinky

Cutie!
"Shooting Star" during the Disney fireworks
Venice beach birds
SPICES IN MY EYE
More magic!
Crazy hair for christmas eve mass
The Boiling Crab wall
New makeup
Favorite ride at Universal
and even MORE magic!
Disneyland was way overpriced, but I miss it immensely!
Gintz' first xmas with us
Newport Beach?
My Boiling Crab inscription
Aus in sugar cookie form
Au naturale, FUCK
more to come, these are just a couple from my camera phone

christmas eve with the links!

Slept at 2am, woke up at 830, ran downstairs and wrapped presents. Around noon, things got emo but all came together in the end. Wrapped with all my might but didn't have enough time to get everything prepared. Got frustrated with the lame presents, laundry day, malufunctioning makeup, long overdue haircut, etc.

Kuya brings me to Aus' house and he comes out wearing his cute ol' blue plaid shirt. I walk inside and his Momma greets me and hands me a little present. Damn I knew I should have followed my gutt and got them some chocolates or something! I said I felt bad, and she hugged me warmly and said that it was completely fine (: damn, I love their family.

Went into Aus' room and opened presents. I won't say what I got him because they're just lame Disneyland stuff, but what he got me was amazing. It started with a ring from his pocket, just like my birthday haha. Then it moved on to a severely taped up box of gold ant earrings. Then, as he said that was all he got me, he pulled out a pretty blue Tiffany's bag, with a box inside, and a pouch inside that, and a beautiful sterling silver necklace within that! Oh my god, the only time I've ever seen anything that concerns Tiffany jewelry was in the movie Breakfast at Tifanny's. Wholly shit I was so close to tears. Then there was yet another pair of earrings then another pair of earrings from his family. I felt so fucking loved. My god, I was glowing from that moment on.

The rest of the day consisted of lots of smiles and pictures and halo and kisses and hugs and drawing and tastiness and family pictures and "did you know your boyf is gay?" and kuya's gift and daddy link's lactating and yule log channel and dancing with dogs and yay christmas mother fucking spirit! I loved today. Told Mom I'd be home by 2 and was dropped off at home around 4 (: His family is so fun, hella welcoming. I am so incredibily happy. I wish I could have prolonged the day by going to their family party, but my momma is a bitch.

Fun ass day at Aus' (: I love him so much. pictures soon to come!

skip, disney, oc, universal, sac

12/16 - The last day before I left for Orange County. It turned out to be a really terrible day at school somehow, I felt bad to be so selfish to all my friends that day. I really am overdramatic. Barely passed humanities test and Marte only had me do half of the 100Q quiz, I like her (: Aus' afterschool, good talk, revelation, goodbyes.

12/17 - Woke up at 530 and got ready for tt the airport. Got there too early, slept on the plane, thought we crashed, my life flashed before my eyes. Kuya picks us up and it's pouring rain which is incredibily unusual in the OC. Hit CA Adventure and endured the rough wind, cold, and rain. Crashed at the hotel for three hours, hit Disneyland around 6 until the park closed early at 9 due to bad weather, LAME.

12/18 - Still cold but clear ass skies. Woke up at 745 and got to Disneyland by 830. It takes us about 5 minutes to walk over there from our hotel. Hit Indianna Jones hella times, space mountain, all those good rides. I realized how huge of a scardy cat I really am. Caused ringing in people's ears, oops. I love Disneyland. Aus says August<3 I wish

12/19 - Went to Universal at 12 but found out it closed at 5 that day. What the fuck, waste of money. Decided to go to Kuya's house and just hang out in the OC. Went to Venice Beach and got harassed by scary drugged rappers. Witnessed a seagull try to eat a starfish. Beach pictures. Ate at the Boiling Crab. Wrote our names on the walls. 4 pounds of seafood. Spices in my eye. Pink Berry Yogurt. I'm getting fat.

12/20 - Universal Studios hella early. Beat the lines for the Simpson Ride. Fucking Awesome. Rode the Mummy, yay. Walked through a horror house. Mother fucking snorting dude wouldn't stop following me around. Trick is stop screaming and they'll stop chasing you. Threw up our "zoo" animal signs in ride pictures. Not as great as Disneyland doh. Tired as fuck.

12/21 - Rockband all morning. Kickass on vocals and medium guitar. hahaha don't hate. I love playing drums though. I suck, but it's the best instrument in Rockband in my opinion. Drove around. More yogurt. Mike is insanely sick. I get sick. Shit shit shit. 7 hour drive home. Talk of spirit orbs and 20Qs. Apparently I'm spoiled. Ya, okay sorry. Home at 12ish am.
*11 months<3 eleven eleven eleven. Fuck the past, the present is pretty damn great and the future just keeps getting better. And you know what, the pink cast only makes him hotter (:

12/22 - Thrift store shopping for Tracy's trench coat. Bad day for shopping. Nothing nothing nothing. I am pissed. I don't know what to do. I'm empty handed. Guitar Hero 3, sinigang, Step Brothers. Good night

12/23 - Wake up at 745. Leave for Vallejo. Freak out about asking Ate and Kuya's permission to go to Aus'. After about forever, I finally get the gutts to ask and I head over there for an hour. I missed him so much. Disneyland, money, boyf, clear skies, perfect! Saved me from a killer by walking me home, gave Ate some bomb ass book that she really likes, I hope I can come over for Christmas Eve tomorrow er today. Went back to Sacramento, they keep talking about Aus.. awkward. Turkey burgers and House Bunny. Damn she's got a nice bod, I want it!



gonna go wrap gifts now. fuck I am such a procrastinator. been watching that 70s show season two all fucking day. ouch, I am so lazy. happy holidays

final finals

why oh why did I save the hardest finals last? need to study all the humanities chapters tonight .. then 180 questions for science. obviously these teachers will know for sure that I've cheated on every single test we've taken. oh great. in a bad mood. trying to eat my feelings away but it just makes me feel worse.

1st - cheated on quote 4, was embarassed watching the last three skits for JC, only got one point in the game to review for finals. I'm so glad I don't have to study for that shit.

2nd - bored. werris talked and talked about the final, but since I already took it I wasn't really listening. jotted some notes down for aus, shh'd at loud ol' bitches keeping us after the bell

break - stayed in and talked to werris about a book to read

third - studied chapter 12 vocabulary with george. it was more like me saying really stupid things to him and him laughing. either way, I knew the entire first page of the test (: yay

fourth - watched modern pride and predjudice. tried to get some of my science done.

lunch - went to hill's and she wouldn't open the door. lingered around the quad area but kinda just ended up staring into space, patrially isolated. waited until 1230, then headed to the library to find a book to read for the next book report. found one on the holocaust.

fifth - tried to finish my packet 6 to turn in that day but armando and danilo borrowed all my work. tried to finish my last assignment in packet six, but kept getting sidetracked. danilo greatly hurt my feelings. I don't appreciate people copying me and then being douchebags. but whatever, semester is over.

6th - ran around the gym for a second, alone. hahaha then played hockey all three rounds. 1st defense, 2nd goalie, 3rd offense. I'm terrible at hockey hahaha. sceamed alot, the end.

drama club - garrison straight up chose me to go up and do my lines. did it in front of a camera and only messed up once, at the end. his response was "well .. at least ya got your lines down" hmm, not exactly motivating. watched myself on the telly and was shocked to hear how squeaky my voice is and how unusual my facial expressions are. I need to practice in front of a mirror


Aus wasn't at school today which kinda bummed me out. only one more day of school left for me and I'm afraid I'll just have to spend it stressing out about finals. I wish I just had a day to say bye to everyone, oh well. one week in disneyland with the siblings but missing one of my favorite people. oh, if only we could all chill in LA together, that would be more than awesome. I probably wouldn't want to go home haha. Christmas is approaching and I still haven't gotten christmas presents. I feel bad that I won't be able to give my secret santa folks their gifts until after break or some time during break .. but I gotta focus on my finals first ): blegh, I have a fever and a headache. I'm sooo ready for school to end.

bleghhh

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performance

I'll make this the detailed blog about my day, then I'll post another blog once I get all of the pictures and videos from Aus.

Today was my first solo performance ever in my life. I've sung solo verses for a couple church songs, but never an entire song that wasn't related to God. Woke up at 830 with the help of my kitty Gintz who would not quit poking my face or meowing in my ear. Prepared to go to church at 10, but couldn't find white top to go with my black bottoms according to the dress code my confirmation group agreed upon. Ran to Ross, bought a 5 dollar scoop neck, dressed and packed my camel back with all the necessities. Got to church at 11 and wasn't feeling too hot. I was freezing, I hadn't eaten, my self cut haircut was bothering me, my outfit sucked, I wasn't sure as to where or how I would perform, etc. Baaad all over. Aus comes around 1 when we (choir) start singing carols. I see him and smile at his video recording. Finish singing and run to the bathroom to change into performance dress.

First performance had major technical difficulties. Thank God I was third. I learned that the wireless mic was shit, and it would be much easier to just sing on the choir stage. Performed with a hummingbird's heart, but finished feeling relieved. Watched the rest of the performances with Aus, then Ate a couple minutes later. The entire "concert" wasn't much. It was definitely an embarassment for the coordinators. Not so interesting performances, gay ass sound system, barely any people, etc. Whatever, it was an experience.

After eating the food from church, getting a bunny named Chestnut, and taking home one of the hundreds of balloons, Aus, Ate, and I went to Ross and shopped around a bit. Got one of my secret santa people one of their gifts, yay. Hit pier 1 and saw Haley and Abbie once again, hella random.

Went home, played a little Hit and Run with Aus, then went out to Island Pacific and bought some food for dinner. Popped Aus' Island Pacific/tofu cherry, haha. Got home and helped prepare some food. Ate, watched the ultimate fighter, stayed warm on the couch with Aus and Gintz, then Mom and Dod left for church again. Ate left and was supposed to take Aus home, but Ate is really cool and understands that I've been wanting to be alone with Aus all day. She warns him to go home before Mom and Dod so that she doesn't get her ass kicked, yay I love Ate. Hung out with Aus for about half an hour <3 the end.

My day was fun. I really enjoy being around Aus and my siblings. It's like all my favorite people hanging out together (: Yay. My stupid mood is slowly fading. My 11 months is rapidly approaching. Wholly shit, I'm in love.

VV WTF!

Thirteenth blog, stating my thirteen followers, on dec 13th!
That's it, I'M CURSED.

thirteen

followers.
I hate looking at that number.
I feel cursed.
One more person follow me, please!

hormonal as fuck

1st - Memorized quote 3 in 5 minutes. I'm in love with that quote now. "Friends, Romans, Countrymen lend me your ears ... The evil that men do lives after them. The good is of't interred with their bones..."
2nd - Ghetto ass note card and no lead in my lucky pencil. The exam turned out to be basically exactly like the final.
3rd - I hate Garrison still. Taking his final in class on Tuesday. Cheating on the Ch12 test on Monday. Got an 85 on my portfolio says Aus. I give up on organizing that shit to a T, he just flips through it for like 30 seconds, the douche! had a meltdown
4th - Finished Amelie! Ate some grapefruit and splenda, brownies, and a sandwich. Made musical medleys with our cheeks <3
lunch - I LOVE LUNCH NOW. Everyone is jolly. I can feel the christmas spirit within me! Bought our Winter Ball tickets for $11 and were only the 14th and 15th people on the list, hahah. More merriment and talk of movie/cooking night at someone's house. Yay, I missed you guys. I don't know why I was so distant for so long.
5th - Actually aced the ch 9 quiz on my own! I've been doing ALL my own homework, and it feels amazing. Taking my 100 Q science test on Tuesday, afterschool.
6th - Played offense for hockey. HAHA, maybe I don't like offense anymore. At least not when Sandeep is on defense. That dude is a beast. Brenda wouldn't let me hit the puck while it was in the crease, but my feet were outside of it. Is that allowed? The competitive side of me was getting annoyed.

Afterschool - Confirmed test date with Garrison and Marte. Picked up home test from Hill. Went to Werris' to take the rest of my final. I thought it would be awkward, but fortunately two of her old students visited her and talked for the entire time I took the test. Ms. Werris is such a gossip girl, haha. After they left and it was just her and I, asked her about some of the questions on the exam today. #3 was 1/500(x)squared + 5. Took a gander at Steven's test, and of course he got it right. That fucking question was worded retardedly. Started talking to Werris about all the stupid teachers at this school, asked about her classes, some students, what's her issue with my hairspray, how she could stand being a teacher, etc. It was surprisingly fun, aha. Finished the final at 4, left her class at 5.

*For those who want to know or are nervous about the exam you should know: basic domain and range, the negative exponent thing, completing the square, averaging intercepts, how to determine the equation of a prabola by looking at the graph, how to find the cost of two items by using elimination, solving for y, parent graphs with the equations including a, h, and k, geo and arith, ...
The final is really just like the exam that was today. If it was tough for you .. uh, make a really kick ass page of notes. I feel confident in my answers, which means Steven will probably ace the entire thing. Arg! hahah

happy birthday daddy link

I lack proper social skills, table manners, common courtesy, etc. Eek, I hope I was able to not look as rude or awkward by the end of the night. I won't lie, Andrew licking my arm loosened me up. I was terrified of fucking up, and from that fear I fucked up even worse. Hahaha, fuck.

1st - memorized quote 2 in 2 minutes, biatch
2nd - review on super homework, blaaah
3rd - 25 points off for eating >:( nigger faggot
4th - Amelie <3 I still can't believe we're watching it
lunch - everyone was so jolly, it really felt like christmas hahhaha
5th - everyone was at SLEWS, worked on my notes for algebra2 final afterschool
6th - good ass hockey game, what a fight to win. hahahaha, I miss offense doh

Afterschool - Quote 1 in hill's class: aced that shit! Went to werris' and did her final. WTF, 41 questions and I only knew about 15 of them. Finally, with only 40 minutes remaining, I asked her a Q and she realized that she gave me the final for next fucking semester! All those tears and frustration for nothing. The actual final is cake doh. I get to finish it tomorrow (:

Went to Pasta Pomodoro with Aus and his entire family for Daddy Link's birthday. Yikes, I'll do better next time. If there is a next time =x making it up in chocolate brownie goodness.


*So after watching Amelie again, I'm feeling very giving. You shall see

emo

Monday - My first drama club rehearsal. Only 4 people showed up and yet I still had stage fright. All that memorizing I had done all day flew out of the door and I went completely blank. Garrison hates my gutts. I wish he was more motivating.

Tuesday - All that I can remember is getting people angry with my presence, haha. Oh oh, and I can't forget embarassment to the point of tears. Stupid body.

Wednesday - Today I was hollow. I felt empty and couldn't muster up even the smallest genuine giggle. Today I felt like letting people step on me, it didn't matter. Tried to smile and force a couple chuckles here and there, but ultimately I felt like a heaping pile of manunu. Why? I have no idea. I'm sick of this mood I'm in. I just want to lay on my bed all day and read, watch, listen, roll, cuddle, etc. At least I have clean sheets and a sparkly clean floor now :)): but Aus hurt his finger, uncool.

Tomorrow looks like a good one, I'm hoping. Doing my math final afterschool (: and feel oh so prepared since I only missed 2 on the district test. Finishing Amelie, hopefully continuing it during lunch because I'm sick of lunch. Daddy Link's birthday tomorrow also, gotta specially wrap his poppyseed birthday scones, ahaha. Yay. I'm still happy, just going through a rough patch that only I can fix.

<3 21 = 11

first time for everything

Friday - Garrison move me up during our ch 9 test because he knows the entire back row always cheats. Thank god for texting. During French we watched Kung Fu Panda. I love that movie, a couple of people decided to stay in at lunch and finish it. In PE we started hockey. I hate people that have no common sense. Throw the puck AWAY from the opponents, not to them.

After school, Aus came over.. then Dod came home for an hour. He left and we watched the beginning of the Science of Sleep.. then Mom came home for an hour and a half. She left and then more of the Science of Sleep, kinda. Sorry. He left,
I slept, parents partied until 12.

Saturday - Went shopping with Ate and bought nothing. Found some thirty dollar ziplocked kind of super duper skinny jeans, but I couldn't spend any money on myself because christmas is just around the corner. After shopping, went over to Ape's house for Kuya Onard's birthday/Pacquiao fight. I don't know if it was the alcohol talking but Kuya Onard invited Texas (Aus) to the party, and my sister seconded that offer. Aus came over, witnessed about 1/4 of my psychotic family, enjoyed some boxing, ate some food, met everyone, was gossiped about, etc. I don't regret inviting him, but it wasn't the most exciting party. Fortunately, inviting him to this party gave him automatic admittance to all the UFC parties. Yay, I'm happy.

Next Saturday - performing in the outreach concert. My first solo performance ... scared as fuck.

welcome home!

Aus is home!

Wednesday, got picked up by Momma Link so that Aus and I could watch a movie or two or three. Bought tickets for Transporter 3 but watched the last 30 minutes of Twilight to pass the time. Once in the theatre, glomped the shit outta him. Ohhhh, how I missed that nigga (: Went into Quantum Solace X: Then finally hit Transporter 3. Wow, I hated that movie. I was so pissed off by the story line, and the ugly girl, and the stupid incorrect guns. Geez! Once the movie ended, it was only 4 and that was the time I told my mom that drama practice ended and I would just get to the movies. Damn ho had the day off, so couldn't wander around. Went into Twilight to watch the beginning. Second time to watch that movie, and I am still just as excited about every scene. Hello Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart in her undies sharing their first kiss. Wholly ..


Anyways, left the movie before the last thirty minutes and went to Wendy's with the little cash we had left. ordered 4 burgers, 2 chicken nuggets, and one oreo frosty. YUM! Momma picked us up, shared a not-so-awkward conversation, dropped Aus off, went home. As I opened my backpack to start homework, found a wendy's plastic flower (: I looooveee that sweetie.

Today, Aus came back to school. It was cute to see how much everyone missed him. "heyyyy austin" - julie (: hahaha cute! Sang a christmas carol with Arielle and Ms. Hill, did my oral presentation, got a B on the bookreport I did at 430AM without even actually reading my book, awesome. Went to the counceling office. They told me I couldn't talk to Ms. Banks about my finals issue with Ms. Hill and that I'd have to take it up to the principal. Damnit, that guy intimidates me. Went outside and watched something way more entertaining than tv. Two of the coolest guys I've ever seen, playing with a ds, yu-gi-oh shorts, booya, oh geezus ahaha. Got kinda awkward with them knowing we were staring, that's lunch. I've been doing really well in school lately. I feel like I'm trying to make up for the fact that I won't be there for finals. Ugh, I'm working my ass off. Actually reading the chapters and studying .. damn, some of the stuff we're learning is actually kinda interesting. Opium for tea? Burn a leaf and cover it with a jar? Yay for being nerdy

Afterschool, Aus skipped practice. Waited around with A, E, K, J, and D. Dropped my shit off at home, went to Aus', hung out, big spoon, sleep, wake up in a panic, run my ass home. Made spaghetti, Momma and Dod hit the church for two hours, I hit Aus' again for an hour. Funnest .. most fun .. funnest hour hahaha. I love that nose booger so damn much. Things are amazing. Foot massage, go through shit, top lip, wet nose, fob, snot, "sesame seeds", no breathing, OH OH BILLY! <333>Showed my parents the Maui gifts I got. Cool ass long white box filled with airport name tag things, keychains, you suck pin, SAM drawing, seashell. Maui directory with exotic flowers (: Then found a post card in the mail from him in Maui with a cute ol' Guava stamp.

Long ol' blog that no one will read (: All that matters is that I'm insanely, ridicuously, head over heels in love. Happiest little nerd you'll ever meet! Yay d21 : 11m :: j21 : 1y <3333!!!!